Sunday, April 15, 2018
notes & things | 4/15/2018
I'm not sure what the weather is doing, but I think it needs to stop. Yesterday was dreadful, and an early morning at the library did not help. I was already tired from staying out late Friday ( some Satanic Panic burlesque fun--an early b-day outing) and woke up at 6am to tiny ice pellets hitting the window. My ears are doing some weird pressure thing the past week that makes my jaw ache and my sinuses throb, so I also just feel slightly off kilter.
Our Art Empire panel Thursday went off splendidly though. This week, I am preparing for a bookwrecking workshop and the final Apocalypse event, the reading, where I'll be trotting out some poems from the upcoming book and reading along with Donna Vorreyer and some student fiction writers. Then there is the murder mystery to work on, and the Grimm project to finalize, and then we are at the end of the semester already (even if outside seems a far cry from springtime.)
My NAPOWRIMO activities continue to go well and I am amazingly still on schedule )as I mentioned before the whole success of which depends on when I draft the poem, earlier in the day, usually while I am eating breakfast, rather than at the end of it.) At the beginning of the day, I can take that time to focus before I get bogged down in a million other things demanding my attention. I am also writing some more zodiac pieces (usually later in the day while I eat dinner.) The spring ones are finished and the scrolls in the layout process, so I should have them available as a subscription offering for later this month. Last week, I also decided to dabble a bit with Tiny Letter, and will be sending some fragments of another, more lyric essay-type project out via that platform.
My dreams about my mother, after a brief reprieve, are back to their usual weirdness, again everything going along in the dream and then all of us, sometimes even her, surprised to find out she's actually dead. Is this what people experience as hauntings? I love the idea of ghosts, but don't really believe in them (or an afterlife), but in this case, she is haunting up a storm. And not really bad dreams, actually pretty mundane stuff, maybe just unsettling in their tenor, as if we keep realizing over and over that she's gone and are dumbstruck.