I was thinking about how it's the 15th anniversary of the dancing girl press chapbook series, and realized that also makes it the 15th birthday of my first chap bloody mary.
In the spring of 2014, a lot was going on. I'd been editing wicked alice for a couple years at that point and had a dream of a possible print operation companion. I was finishing out my first year of grad school getting my MFA and had started sending out my first full-length mss.. I had just won a pretty big Chicago based prize and the 1000 bucks attached to it (and thus had a little wiggle money to devote to poetry).
The previous year, Moon Journal Press had taken my first chap, The Archaeologists Daughter, but it would still be another year before it was published. I was doing a lot of readings locally and fending off incredibly flattering inquiries about whether I had a book people could buy. Also engaging in a flourishing online writing community where everyone was always trading work. I thought to myself, if this press thing was going to be a go, I might want to start with issue-ing something that, if I botched it or found it horrible, only I would be affected. It actually worked out pretty well--since I was clueless, I taught myself how to layout something that could be manually double sided (something almost comical in these days of duplex booklet printing). I bought some nice resume parchment paper for a the cover, used the library's pamphlet stapler, and I had a book. The cover image was courtesy of Alaina Burri-Stone, whose work I encountered in stirring and would also use for another chap of mine, my first full-length, some of the wicked alice print annuals, and a couple later chaps by other people.)
That first edition was slightly shorter than the one pictured above. After the initial 25 were gone, I did a second revised printing of another 25 , with a few more poems tacked in and a new, more sturdy watercolor paper cover. The entire chap only exists in those 50 copies. Where they went or wound up, who knows? We do have a copy in the library I donated. I traded them to a lot of other poets and gave many away. I sold a few at Quimby's here in Chicago. When I read at the Poetry Center that fall, I sold quite a few there, along with a second chap, belladonna, also released in 2004.
Looking at the poems themselves, there is much of what went into the fever almanac here, including the title poem. An earlier version of "nebraska." What are more interesting are the poems that never made the jump--either thematically or quality-wise. Poems about ghostly twins, memorial photography, wicked stepmothers. An early poem about Little Red Riding Hood that would be revisited as the "book of red" project. Some of it' s overwrought. Over done. I had to learn to reign back on the "poeticalness."
"When you speak it's like honey.
The flutter of wings and drones
harbors in the bones of your throat."
from "sugar"
The bulk were written in 2002 & 2003, when I was really beginning to publish work in online journals, so almost all of them appeared in various places electronically. I would follow it up with that second 2004 chap with some newer work and a cardstock cover, most of which also made it into the full-length, but this one holds an especially fond place in my heart for it's roughness.
